What am i supposed to do if pick up, what am i supposed to say how am i supposed to act. Is there anyhing saying that is worth your time. Im not worth your time, your life is better without me in in it you are a woman with a job a house a boyfriend. Im a no-life loser who spends her sprng break talking about zelda. You might not beleve me when say it but i do miss you alot ...i found Remember Me [if you dont remember it i guss there was no point to bringing it up] today every page of it it madem e smile and cry at the same time. I was happy because it brought so many memories but i was sad because it madem realize how much i miss you. Maybe thats why i dont want to talk through pone m afraid of breaking down in tear...and everytime i do i know you hate it im just scared ok...i have never had someone break up with me so i dont know how to act afterwards. I know thats the true reason i cant get my self to talk n the phone...im scared that the first thing im gonna hear is cursing yells and if you want to do that to me id rather you do it over the internet. But if you can assre me that i wont greet the phone with a yell then i will pick up the phone...and if i start o break down in tears you can hang up because i would understand who needs a coward in their life. I will tell you nothing but the truth. I dont want you to cut all connections i dont want to forget i dont i just want to talk to you about you about me aout no one else and i wat to be able to talk to you without crying without being afraid that every second you wll yll at me. I want to talk to you about old times old thngs we used to do ...i want to go back to the way we were in middle school i want to talk to you with out feeling pressured with out being notified how im not there. I want to talk to you about happy times so i dont have to cry and anger you. I want to rp like we used to. I want to talk to you without silence i want to talk to you like we are in seventh grade. I want to forget everything around me and pretend im the person you used to like. I want to be the person who did not make you angry. I want to be the strong person that guy form used to be i want to get rid of the dark form he has become. I want to talk to you about different yai. I want to talk you about nothing important. I want to talk to you like i used to i want to be the person you saw years ago not themorphed depressed one i am. I ant you to ignore how worthless i am and talk. I want to talk. But im scared i wish i wast but the truth is..im terrifyed of you.

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Love is like Oxygen- Moulin Rouge



"Every time we say goodbye a little part of my heart leaves with you"- Me

When you're not near me I shake, cry and cringe..... I have never experienced withdrawl until now

Melli~OrganizationDLV

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You don't remember? Well then I don't remember either! Maybe I wasn't even there...